End of month, end with a tiff

Today 31 july is 1st of month 7th in lunar calendar. As usual I go to vihara to pray every 1st and 15th..

It's end of july, but we had a tiff. It was before he drive me home.

I ignored him along way home. I can't tolerate him for what happened just now.
He said he wanna give things to his uncle. So after go to vihara, we went to his uncle's house, though I wait him in the car.

He made me wait for at least 40min in the car. I dunno whether he forgot I was in the car or he was too exciting chat with his uncle. I'm ok if I have to wait, fine..
but what I make me unhappy with is he lied to his uncle and aunt that he said he came alone.
Coincidence, Then his nephew played around his car and saw someone inside when I was rest in car. His nephew thought I am a ghost.
He shouted, then I shocked and awake.
They asked him who inside, he answer a friend. Who? A friend. They confused, and ask again. At last he said my girlfriend.
I thought he was just dunno how to answer. But in fact he was lying in the beginning. That is why he reflected to answer all the questions.

Am I that worst so he don't wanna admit I am his girlfriend?
Did he forget that I was inside the car to wait him?
Should he lie to his aunt just because I don't wanna go inside their house?
Am I that bad if the reason I don't wanna get in his uncle's house is because I just passed 100th days, so it's still awkward to go inside others people house?

He explained to me, but I can't accept his answer..too ridiculous for an answer.
I just don't like the way he handle things and how he treat me..

I need time to think again our relationship..

P.s do not need any comment or advise, thanks
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I hate 2011

I hate this year..
I can't avoid on fate..
I loss my dearest Papa and Bede this year in 2011..
I still remember on new year eve, I said to my bf I feel so exciting to 2011, I hope 2011 will be better year to me..
But in fact, this is the hardest year to me.. I want early end of 2011. :(
God, pls help us to get through all this. Pls bring joy to all human in the rest of 2011.

P.s no negative meaning.
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Dedicate to my dearest and best Bede Yong

Bede Yong,
We were planning to visit and bring durians for u tomorrow leh..I bought the tickets already.
But I really shock when uncle called and said u has passed away this morning..
Why can't u wait for us neh?

I regret can't see u before u go..
I feel so miserable..life is so fragile..no matter how perfect we plan, we can't deny on fate..

Bede, in my memory, u r the best bede I've got. U always give ur hand to help us. When we were waiting papa in coma at hospital, u offered us to stay in ur house. U joined us to pray for papa even u also got sick. U said papa is a kind man, always help family and friends. But u know what, u also as kind as Papa. U r the best one.
Papa always praised u if we mention bout u.
U will always in my mind, Bede.
All of us will go to Spore tmrw to see u for the last time.. :'(

Bede, u dun need to get pain on ur sickness anymore.
I hope Buddha will protect u and join Papa in heaven..

Luv u Bede..

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Ice Cream and Yogurt

When I feel not good, I will eat ice cream or yogurt..
This two desserts will bring me to better mood.. =)
But after eat them, I have to do more exercise to burn the calories ✗_✗ alamakkkkkk..

P.s today not good
P.p.s I hope I can find a corner to hide
P.p.p.s I will keep make myself busy everyday
P.p.p.p.s smile for better tomorrow ∩_∩

加油。。不放弃。。
加油。。不放弃。。

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Fake Smile

Ok, I just pretend to smile..
But I think this fake smile, maybe could change the situation, I think when I try to smile more maybe would be true smile..

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100th Days

Papa,
Today is the 100th days..
Time flies so fast..it just like yesterday we went to malaysia..
I can't get out from 'the box. The box where I fell.
I miss the time when we were together.
Miss u papa..
Luv u always..
RIP my dearest beloved Papa..
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After gym is so great

I like this feeling, the feeling after gym..
I'm loving it..
I do gym sometimes, but I always gym when I get mood n happy..
Now I know exercise when I was in bad mood will give such great feeling.

Sweating, better mood, feel my heartbeat faster, happier..

When i do exercise, I will forget everything, just concentrate on exercise..
I finally found the way how to de-stress..

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100 paper cranes

I just watched Ah Di (Devotion).
She was coma in hospital. And her children fold 100 paper cranes for her, wishing she will wake up..
And she really wake up..

I'm thinking how wish I knew this early. I will fold 100 paper cranes for my dad.
He would wake up..I wish I can time travel..

Dad, I still miss u..
My love to u and Mom still the same.it will never change, next life I wish I will be ur daughter again..

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