Suicide

I dreamed a very weird dream lastnite.
I suicide myself by taken a lot of sleeping pills. Then I am coma in hospital. I saw a lot of people come to hospital n crying, especially when I saw my Mom, koko, sis, him, dwarfs, n touchwood. I asked them dun cry, but nobody's hearing me.

Myb in future, when I read this again I will laugh. Or myb I think I am a moron. But rite now, I really want to do it. But if I will end up to coma, I dun think I would do it. It makes a lot of people upset.

I'm jobless now, but I feel so stressful..this kind of stress level is more than when I was working.

In real world, I won't suicide of course, that is a very stupid thing. Most of time, we will see other people stupid if they suicide.
But I can tell that I understand the way they are thinking, why they force to end up they life. I will not support, but myb I can tell them 'let's find a specialist, they might help us'

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